deeply thankful

I have soooo much to be thankful for. It's been amazing these past few days and my heart is just so full of love and thankfulness. I don't even know where to begin. Looking back on the circumstances of N's birth, I see how faithful God was to T and my prayers regarding seeking wisdom. All the details worked out that I went in for a Caesar instead of trialling labor like I had really been wanting to. As it turned out, my uterus had ruptured, and if I had trialled labor, I would have put N and my life at risk. Instead, N was born safely and I have had an excellent recovery due to the surgeons really taking their time to sew me up properly. Again, another prayer answered since I am now feeling so good.

I have renewed energy now that I am not pregnant. Even though I am getting up 1 to 3 times during the night to feed, it is a different sort of tired than what I was feeling at the end of my pregnancy. Plus, I feel much more stable emotionally. I must of gotten use to the crabby state of mind, and now that it's gone I feel like a huge weight has been lifted (and literally it has!)

This morning T was holding N and E in his lap. E was just totally adoring his little sister and so pleased that she was holding his finger. As I watched the three of them sit together, my heart was flooded with joy for the birth of our little girl. I'm excited to watch E, S, and N grow as brothers and sister, and to continue to encourage E to look after and protect N. This morning made me thankful in a new way that we have been blessed with a little girl to share our lives with.

Finally, T got a job. The timing is absolutely perfect. Once again God was faithful in ways that blow me away. We had wanted T to be home for two weeks after N's birth. She's 2 weeks old today and T starts his job tomorrow. Plus, it's worked out that T will start part-time and then go to full-time work over the next few weeks. This is a total grace, it will be perfect for me to be able to transition from having 2 children with 2 of us, to 3 children with just me. So thankful for that!

Oh, and one more note of thankfulness. I'm totally peaceful about N's growth. I've had a lot of trouble with milk supply in the past, and this time I'm not phased. I've been praying lots about it and after seeing God's provision in our lives thus far, am at a place of trust. Whatever will be will be, and all I can do is give her the best chance at getting breast milk, which I feel confident I am doing.

One more thing, our house is for sell. This came as a bit of surprise to us, but again by God's grace I am at a place of trusting. I feel confident that it will all work out and am not worried about it. I'm curious where we will be living and how we will move out, but at this point in time I am peaceful about it.

6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 4:6-7