this afternoon

This afternoon was a totally different day. My prayer was answered and I was able to enjoy the boys and thankfully there weren't as many melt downs. Even once Ethan stopped himself just before he threw a fit and decided to share his toy with Seth. I almost couldn't believe it. Now that I reflect on it, why should I be so shocked, God is amazing and gracious.

That is something that Terry and I were talking about tonight, how God is so amazingly gracious. I was asking Terry why we should evangelize, which led to talking about what we deserve in life. We deserve nothing, so every good thing that we have is God's grace to us. When I really dwell on the truth of this, it makes me ashamed that I am so quick to grumble.

I was wondering about evangelizing because I was reading in Ephesians about how God predestined us to be saved to glorify himself. I lost focus of why since it's already set out to be done. Terry reminded me that we are told to spread the good news. This relates in my head to prayer. God is in control of everything and is not dependent on us, YET, we are commanded to pray and that our prayers will be answered. I don't know how it all works but I do know that we are to pray and we are to love others through sharing the news of Christ's death and forgiveness and the truth is that this brings Him glory.

I do desire to know Him better, to live and breathe Him, to make much of Him, so much so that anyone who meets me wants to know what is my source of Joy. Oh, to have that kind of knowledge. I guess this is often what Paul prayed for for the churches that he loved and served. May it be my prayer for others, and may I understand how to live out this desire.