happy new year

I almost didn't make it last night to midnight to see the new year in. In the end we did make it, but barely, we were climbing in bed when we heard the midnight fireworks going off. While we waited for midnight to arrive, T and I discussed if we had ever gone to bed before the appointed time, this led to us reminiscing about our past new year's experiences and just life in general.

Funny how bringing in a new year can make you look back as well as forward. I think it's good to look through the perspective of the past when dreaming about the future. Piper talks a lot about this in his book Future Grace. Remembering the graces that God has given us in the past, in order to have more faith of the graces that God will give us in the future.

So what have I learned from my past as I look to my future?

• Worrying has never solved or made any situation better.
• Trying to protect myself from hurt by not trusting someone has never actually worked as a mode of protection.
• God has never let me down, even when I don't understand completely His "no's" He has given me a peace about His actions.
• The times where I have loved ruthlessly have been much sweeter moments then the ones where I got hung up on my insecurities.

I'm sure if I sat and thought about the list longer, I could think of more. These were the first few that came to mind, and I think that these are the main topics on my mind at the moment. These are all things that I hope to learn from and can apply in life. I'd like to not worry, trust God and T implicity, and love ruthlessly and freely those around me through God's love.